Special Connection

It is so bazaar. Sometimes all of Lori's weird and irritating habits drive me crazy and I just want a break from having to give her so much attention all of the time, but 5 minutes after we serparate I miss her like crazy. It takes so much energy to give her so much attention at times it is overwhelming. Most people have no idea how hard it is to just get her to focus on one thing, complete 1 activity, stay positive and not get frustrated about something. Being in the hospital with Nicole and having Lori here earlier was so stressful. It is so hard for Lori to share my attention. She wants me all to herself. She really loves Nicole and wants her to get well but she wants me to focus on her too. She is the most loving and kind child in the world and she did really well about not being able to stay and having to leave me here with Nicole. Now that she is gone I miss her terribly. It is really good in a way that no one is reading this stuff because I just need to vent from the frustration and the stress.