I cannot believe it has been like 2 years since my last post, but my words could have been from yesterday.  I had forgotten how long we have been dealing with all of Lorial's issues.  It has been such a long and difficult journed, but I would not trade her for anyone. There are times when I do the whole what if thing where you imagine how life would be if things were only different in some kind of way. Even when I do that, I always conclude that my life would be empty without her and when she is not here I miss her terribly.  Things have always been so hard for her. I wish I knew how to help her, but it is just nothing I can do but be here for her and pray. God loves her and so do I.