Heart Breaking

i try so hard to be positive and keep my faith, but it is so hard when everything keeps coming against us.  just when i think we are over a hump and things are going well, lori decides to do something so harmful that it throws us back to square 1.  i can not even begin to imagine why she would not take her medicine. she knew what would happen because we talk about it all the time. i am just so tired and worn out i