too much from back in July

this shit is just too much.  i am just to the point where i want to give up. i cannot keep doing this over and over again. it takes so much effort to keep pulling her back up from the pit of whatever new hell she takes us to. i want to be there for her and be supportive and understanding and all that shit, but sometimes it just is over frigging whelming.  i just want to disappear from all of this shit and never deal with it again. she keeps finding some new way to be upset or sad or depressed or something. i am sick to death of listening to all of it and trying to be positive and upbeat and whatever. fuck all of this.  i just want to try and be happy for a change for myself.  i know that is not going to happen because i never have a chance to just be happy for myself. i am only hear to help her and do things for her and help her and whatever. i am tired of doing this shit by myself. i am tired of being positive and supportive i am sick to death of all of this fucking shit. i want to have a life a man friends activities fun and something resembling a life outside of this crazy shit. i am sick to death of jumping through hoops trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with her now. with all the shit she has going on now she decuded she wants to stop eating and that is how she will lose weight.  seriously. she cannot stop eating and never listens to shit i say and every time she wants some sweet shit i have to argue and fuss with her to stop and now she wants to stop eating.  tomorrow she will be asking for cinnabons shit from mcdonalds. i just do not have the strength to deal with this now. I am tired as fuck and sick to death of all of this.  how am i suppossed to keep dealing with this shit every single day. the only time i have any peace is when she is sleep.  i cannot wait for her ass to go to sleep and shut the fuck up with this bullshit. it is like she is just trying to be as crazy as she can and get as much attention from it as possible. now she is looking up anorexia and talking like she thinks it is a good thing to starve herself.  i am sick.